hydraulics of the mind the horror of a couch potato

the horror of a couch potato

We already know that the body reacts with a real somatic change to a virtual threat. This type of solution works very well for shorter thought processes. The minds of dogs, cats, squirrels, mice, hamsters and monkeys create projections covering short periods: the nearest 5 seconds, the next minute, the next 5 minutes, or a day. The emotional states that arise in the bodies of these organisms are being “used” immediately. The fear that something will come out from behind the tree that a cat is approaching, based on the memory of a previous event, causes immediate behavioral changes (for example, making a larger circle around the tree) and is immediately fading away.

body reacts with a real somatic change to a virtual threat

The problem arises when the ability to create complex mental scenarios increases rapidly. As big brain mammals, we create scenarios that concern much longer periods. We think about what we will be doing in 5 minutes, in an hour, in a day, in a week, in a month, in a year, in 5, 10, 20 years. An efficient mind can generate an infinite number of scenarios of events (both nice and very unpleasant) that can happen to us over such long periods. If we now respond to each of these scenarios with a physiological change in the body, we can easily see that this can quickly overload the entire system.

Things can get even worse if you add to it thinking about the past events. For what is the past?

The past is also a thought, which is some kind of scenario that is played out in our minds in the present moment. As in the case of thoughts about the future, we also react to scenarios about past events with a real emotional state that changes the state of the body. If in the past we found ourselves in a situation in which our body had prepared itself to fight or flee, now if we recall the event, that is, recreate it in our mind, our body will be preparing itself to fight or flee again. The stress response will occur in the body and a feeling of stress will appear in the mind.

Remember that our thinking does not only concern our own physical or mental health, but also people close to us, people with whom we are related. In addition, thinking can include completely abstract characters from films, books, etc., and abstract concepts such as society, humanity, planet, etc. Current amount of grey matter in our brains allows us to dwell in virtual reality of thoughts non-stop during the day and for a large part of the night. As a result our bodies are in a state of constant emotional agitation, ready to take action forever .

This may not be a special problem for people who are gifted with positive thinking, whose minds are creating positive scenarios. However, people with a tendency to create darker scenarios find themselves in a rather dreadful situation.

our bodies are in a state of constant emotional agitation, constantly ready to take action

However, we know from our own experience that our reactions to mental stories differ and are not always so dramatic. The same story may cause a whole series of stressful reactions in one moment, and not be particularly exciting at another time. The degree of emotional reaction to a thought depends on the degree of faith in its reality.

hydraulics of the mind the horror of a couch potato

word becomes flesh

Thinking is a mechanism that enables an organism to create a virtual simulation of itself and its environment. It allows it to predict opportunities and threats resulting from its potential interactions with its environment. During the process of thinking the mind creates a series of mental scenarios of its interactions with its environment  and chooses the best one. But how does the mind know which scenario to choose?

It turns out that the so-called somatic markers are the mechanism necessary to choose the right scenario defining the set of actions to be undertaken. A somatic marker is a change in the body (an emotion) that occurs when you mentally act out a scenario.

The concept of somatic markers was first introduced by the Portuguese professor of behavioral neurology Antoni Damasio. In the book “Descartes’ Error”(which basically changed my life), he presents how the existence of somatic markers is essential to undertaking any rational decision. According to the author, the mistake that Descartes made was to assume that the rational mind works in isolation from emotions. Damasio shows that it is the emotion or somatic marker that is necessary for the body to make any decision regarding its well-being.

In simple terms, the mind plays out several possible scenarios and at the same time feels the physiological changes (emotions) that occur in its body. On this basis, it selects the scenario related to the most pleasant or least unpleasant physiological change.

If the virtual body experiences danger in the virtual world, an emotion of stress will arise in the real world, i.e. in the real body.

In the article on stress, we saw that stress is a state of the body’s readiness to take action to avoid danger.

So now we can see that the body reacts with a real somatic change to a virtual threat. In this way, the virtual world becomes the real world from the point of view of the body. The word becomes flesh. Events that are merely simulations cause reactions similar to those that would occur in the body if these events were happening in the real environment of the organism.

virtual world is a real world from the point of view of a body

Thanks to this mechanism, the body can react much faster to a possible threat. If a mere thought image of a predator prepares the body to act, it will significantly shorten the reaction time when a real predator jumps out for the bushes.

body reacts with a real somatic change to a virtual threat

However, this solution works well only when a thought about a threat concerns a very near future (next second, next minute). The situation becomes much more complicated in the case of projections concerning more distant events.

hydraulics of the mind the horror of a couch potato

virtual reality

Every living organism strives to maintain the balance of its life processes. The disturbance of these processes, the loss of homeostasis, is immediately compensated by taking specific actions aimed at restoring the state of equilibrium. In fact, life comes down to a very long series of moments of losing and regaining that balance. From this perspective, death is a moment of irreversible loss of balance.

Factors that cause the disturbance of homeostasis (stressors) can appear both in the physical environment of an organism, in its social environment, or inside the very organism itself. These threats may be physical or mental.

In the course of its evolutionary development, organisms have developed an ability to estimate the probability of a specific stressor to occur. At the same time they developed another ability – to plan actions allowing them to avoid the potential harm caused by the stressor. The common name for both these skills is “thinking”.

One of the main differences between different species (apart from the number of legs and their facial expressions) is the degree to which they are able to create virtual models of the reality around them.

Most likely, relatively simple organisms do not create a model of the reality in which they are located, but instantaneously react to a direct stimulus. In the case of more complex creatures, the situation seems to be more complicated. A bird that is choosing its path of flight through the forest, a fox that is chasing a rabbit, or a homo sapiens that is preparing its scrambled eggs in a kitchen, all these organisms need to perform a great deal of calculations on the potential effects of selecting specific series of actions before these actions are actually taken.

The bird, the fox and the human, all generate in their minds virtual projections of the worlds they are in. As part of these projections, they simulate various scenarios of actions, the aim of which is to avoid danger (e.g. oversalting eggs), and on the other hand, to take advantage of the potential opportunities (e.g. swallowing an escaping fly).

Thinking is a process in which the body creates a virtual representation (or rather interpretation) of the world in which it is located, generates its own virtual / mental counterpart (avatar) – the self, and then simulates potential changes in the environment and possible responses to these changes.

Thinking is a form of virtual world which, unlike the real world, does not exist in a physical sense, but is only a projection of the organism’s mind. By means of a thought process, the mind creates virtual variants of future events and, based on previously gained experience, assesses the probability of their occurrence. This enables it to predict the consequences of actions that it is going to undertake in the present.

The ability to remember events and simulate possible variants of the future situations was of colossal importance for the survival of the human species. Thinking has become an amazing tool that has enabled us to eliminate a significant number of stressors from our environment.

However, for having such a highly developed thought process, we have to pay a huge price  – an increased stress level. 

The role of stressors in the modern human has been taken over by thought processes.

Why is it so? After all, the main advantage of the thought process was the elimination of threats from the environment of an organism. And so it happened, but the role of stressors for modern man has been taken over by mental processes, and more precisely by virtual projections of potential threatening situations. To understand why this happened, let’s examine the relationship between thought and emotions.

hydraulics of the mind the horror of a couch potato

battle ready

Stress is a physical and mental state that occurs as a result of the body’s contact with a factor that poses a potential threat to the balance of its life processes.

Imagine the following situation: suddenly a tiger appears in front of you. Your brain quickly assesses the situation and decides that the situation poses a threat to the survival of the organism. As a result of this assessment the brain causes a number of physiological changes aimed at preparing the muscles for an increased work – the fight or flight response (the sympathetic system is activated and stimulates the adrenal glands to release adrenaline and noradrenaline, causing the pupils to dilate, accelerate heart rate and breathing etc. ). At the same time, other parts of the brain constantly monitor the changes taking place in the body. They register the increased readiness of the body to take actions and transmit the information about this state to consciousness in the form of – a feeling of stress.

A feeling of stress is how the mind feels a readiness of the body to take an action in order to avoid a danger in its environment. In other words a feeling of stress is the way how an emotion of stress feels (if you’re uncertain on the differences between a feeling and an emotion please read the following article: emotions vs feelings)

A stress response plays a very important role in the survival of the body.

The feeling of stress is how the mind feels the readiness of the body to take an action in order to avoid a danger in its environment.

If the body has not been generating the stress responses (an emotion of stress) while facing a danger, it would be fairly quickly eliminated by the process of evolution. It would be unable to cope with challenges posed by its environment. In short, it would be eaten before it had any chance to leave an offspring behind. Therefore the purpose of stress reaction is to prepare the body to undertake a specific physical activity in order to avoid a threat.

Nowadays however, (for most of us in the developed countries) the external conditions in which we find ourselves fall short from being perfect. We don’t suffer from cold, we don’t suffer from hunger, there are no hungry predators lurking around. We spend most of our time sitting in comfortable sofas, talking to nice, cultured people, without fear of an unexpected attempt on our lives. The physical environment seems to be free from stressors, factors with which the body would immediately fight. 

The purpose of the stress response is to prepare the body to avoid danger.

It seems that in modern times the main stressors do not come from the outside world*. However, they are born entirely elsewhere. In a virtual world, popularly known as thinking.

*you may rise an argument that this situation has changed in 2020 due to the pandemic but I will still try to refute it in some other text

hydraulics of the mind the horror of a couch potato

Feelings vs emotions

conscious feelings and unconscious emotions

In everyday language, the terms emotions and feelings often  are used as substitutes. It turns out though, that from the point of view of behavioral neurobiology they describe two different phenomena*. Understanding the difference between these concepts will come in handy in further exploration of mental tension and happiness.

What are emotions

“An emotion consists of a very well orchestrated set of alterations in the body that has, as a general purpose, making life more survivable by taking care of a danger, of taking care of an opportunity, either / or, or something in between. “

Antonio Damasio

An emotion is an implementation of a very complex program of alterations to the bodily states that is triggered when a danger or a potential opportunity in the environment is detected. The purpose of an emotional reaction is to prepare an organism to face a danger that arises in its environment or to take advantage of an opportunity.

Thus, emotions refer to all possible states of the body, the purpose of which is to adapt the organism to changing external conditions. Emotions are a form of movement, movement that manifests itself outside (e.g. movement of the facial muscles in the case of a smile) and movement inside the body, i.e. changes in the work of internal organs (e.g. increased heart rate, stomach contraction, increased bowel movement, etc.) This movement also takes place at the molecular level, for example in the endocrine system (e.g., secretion of norepinephrine by the adrenal glands during a stress response). 

Emotional response programs are stored in the DNA of all species, and do not differ essentially between individuals or even between species. The emotion of joy will be very similar for both a prehistoric caveman and a modern businessman. It will also be the same in principle in a dog, an ape and a human.

However, emotions run outside the scope of consciousness of an organism. As changes in bodily states, they occur on the same level as digestive processes or the work of the circulatory system.

What are feelings?

A feeling is how the mind feels an emotion that has arisen in the body, how it feels a physiological change. A feeling is the way the mind perceives the change in the work of internal organs triggered by an emotional response. A feeling is a mental state taking place in the consciousness of the organism. In short – feelings are conscious emotions.

A feeling is the way the mind perceives a change in the work of internal organs triggered by an emotional response. 

So, if we feel fear, it means that an emotional reaction has occurred in the body, i.e. a certain sequence of changes in the state of internal organs, changes in the secretion of hormones in the endocrine system, caused by the body recognizing threats in the environment.

If we feel thirsty, it means that a program has been triggered in the body to implement a specific species-beneficial behavior. The tension associated with the emotion of desire will persist as long as the body feels the possibility of acting to release tension.

If we feel calm, it means that the body works in a neutral mode because at the moment it does not detect factors that would pose a threat to its functioning, nor does it recognize opportunities that could positively affect its current state.

The body constantly scans its surroundings for possible threats or potential benefits. He also constantly evaluates these experiences from the point of view of his functioning and on the basis of this assessment he decides whether to trigger a specific emotional reaction or not.

An organism is incredibly complex and constantly experiences an enormous amount of sensations. For this reason, emotional programs are constantly run overlapping and intertwining. The spectrum of emotional states is very wide. At one end of this spectrum one will find bodily states (emotions) that are relaxed and neutral, and on the other end states of readiness to avoid a threat (i.e. tension) or to seize a potential opportunity (tension again).

Now that we have a better understanding of what the feelings and emotions that arise in the mind (and body) are, we can easier understand happiness and stress.

* This distinction and the strong link between feelings and emotions with physiological states was first introduced by Antonio Damasio.

open awareness

Small mind- Big mind

Rabbit – duck

What do you see? A duck or a rabbit? The perception continuously shifts. The precepts of the rabbit and the duck are competing for the space inside consciousness. Or rather, the perception creates either a percept of a duck or a percept of a rabbit. If one plays with it for a while one may notice that the emergence of a given percept (duck or rabbit) depends on where the attention is placed. It’s possible to move the attention around the cues in the picture in order to develop better control over shifting perception. Now the question arises, Is it possible to hold both percepts, the rabbit and the duck in consciousness at the same time?Trying to do so can get quite frustrating. Seems like the mind is designed in the way that it has to choose only one of the percepts at a given time. In other words, the perception can create a percept of a rabbit or a  percept of a duck only. 

Small mind –  big mind

Now, let’s become aware of the sense of self, the small mind. Let’s stay with this percept for a few moments. Now, let’s shift the attention to the perception of the big mind.  Now again the small mind, and then the big one. It’s exact situation isn’t? The feeling is very similar to the one you get from the rabbit/duck picture.  The attention is moving, different precepts emerging. One is the small, boring, slightly annoying sense of self, another cool, calm, spacious big mind. But… similar to the duck rabbit illusions, this too is just an emerging percept, just something that the mind conjures ad hoc, in the very moment.

The percept that is dominating, that stays longer or more often within the consciousness conditions what we think the reality is and conditions our responses to it. If you like eating ducks, and consider rabbits cute, depending on what percept is emerging your emotional response will be different. You may get hungry seeing a duck or you may get a loving feeling seeing the rabbit. 

Similar in the case of the small and the big mind. If the perception of the small mind is dominating, emotional responses and related actions differ from those that would have taken place if the perception of big mind was present. 

The question that comes next is, how to hold both of them, or is it possible to hold both percepts in the consciousness at the same time? Or is it needed at all?

open awareness

Dead cat and a leaf

Sometime ago I was cycling to town. Suddenly I saw the body of a dead cat, probably killed by a car. As I was approaching the carcass, my whole body reacted with disgust and all related emotions and thoughts. As I was getting closer, suddenly my perception shifted. It wasn’t a dead cat anymore, it was a big dry leaf. The emotion of disgust disappeared, the negative thoughts had gone. The mind and the body had understood, without any thinking involved, that it had been just a leaf, nothing more, nothing to fear or avoid. All this process had happened automatically, without any intention involved. The mind had been gathering more and more data about the object, and the perception of it had been shifting according to the amount of data defining the object. When the perception shifted, the mind and body reactions changed accordingly.

Some optical illusions are a result of purposely limited information. The creator of an illusion withdraws certain information/data from a picture, leaving only the cues that lead to a wrong interpretation of the picture by the perception of a viewer. When that missing information is revealed to the viewer later, the perception automatically shifts and the viewer’s mind understands that it was subjected to an illusion. Then, when the data is withdrawn again from the picture, the perception flips back to the previous, ‘deluded’ state. The viewer intellectually recognizes that she experiences an illusion, but her perception stays on the ‘deluded side’.

This process is nothing uncommon. It is happening all the time. Our minds are continuously proceeding data from different senses, and our perception is being shaped and shifts according to the amount of data the mind gathers. Perception of ourselves and of the world we live in. Based on this perception our body and mind reacts with happiness and sorrow, with love and anger with liking and disliking. Based on this perception, we define ourselves and our place in the world.

The attention of the mind moves around the senses, allowing the perception to organize data into percepts. If we focus our attention on something (a good book or a movie) to an exclusion of the outside world, the perception of the outside world ceases or becomes very limited. With this limited perception, our reactions to the outside world will change as well. We might react with fear or anger to certain sounds, sights or touches that would bring about an entirely different reaction, if we were paying attention to the world (let our mind gather the sufficient amount of data). Similar situation takes place when we pay entire attention to the storyline of our thinking. This thinking becomes a good movie (can be a love story but can be a horror movie as well) that takes our attention away from the other senses causing a shift of perception of what is actually happening. This movement of mind’s attention, conditions our perception and therefore our reactions to the experience. Like in the case of the dead cat or an optical illusion, the mind with the limited data perceives the world in a ‘deluded’ way. That brings about a whole range of misreactions (misunderstandings) on the emotional level. The only way to move out of this, is moving our attention away from the thinking process and allowing the mind to gather data about the present experience. Constant flow of sensory data describing the present experience will gradually shift the perception of what is actually happening. And that shift of perception will bring about deep relaxation on the emotional level. The dead cat will become a dry leaf. There will be nothing to fear, nothing to run away from…

open awareness

working with noise

First open your eyes. Now while keeping your eyes open imagine yourself as an empty space in which all sounds are happening. They come and go. They pass through the empty space of your body. None of them can harm you. The noise of passing cars and motorbikes, the horns, the voices of people. All of them are happening inside the empty space which is you. Check the reaction of your mind. Is it trying to push away any of these sounds? Is it getting tense or stressed by the sounds around? If yes don’t worry. Just recognize the tension and try to find a relax pace around the tension. Allow the tension to be there. After few moments you might notice that the tension slowly lessens. The mind slowly relaxes. Try this approach with the sounds around. See how the mind reacts to them. Is it getting tense, does it trying to push away or block the sound? Remind yourself that the sounds are nature. They already had happened. You can not do anything about them. Your mind already registered them. So even the noisiest sound is already in the mind. Trying to push it away will not work. It will only bring a tension to the mind. Nothing more. And create more stress.

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how a belief gets formed

So far we have seen that a mind always reacts in the way that according to its own calculations will allow it to avoid stress and help it to get closer to happiness. These reactions depend on what the mind is currently experiencing and its belief in what would be the best response to the present experience .

What is a belief and how does it arise?

A belief is a habit that determines how a mind will respond to a given situation. It is a response to a current condition that according to the mind’s calculations is most optimal at the moment.

The belief is based on a memory of the following sequence:

an experience -> reaction to the experience ->resulting state of mind.

Every experience triggers a mental reaction, and this reaction leads to a certain mental state. Each sequence imprints in the memory. If a certain sequence is repeated many times, the trace left in the mind goes deeper. If a reaction to a certain experience results in a positive mental state, and this sequence happens a certain number of times, the mark left in the mind is deep enough to become a preferred course of action, a habit. We can say that the reaction has trod a habitual path in the mind. This will be the course of action that the mind will choose whenever it encounters a certain type of experience. It will become a habit, a habitual reaction to an event, the belief that this type of reaction to this type of event is optimal.

Habits or beliefs are reflected in the neural structure of the brain. There are habits we are born with, that we have inherited from the animal kingdom, such as fear of heights or fear of sudden loud sounds. Basically they are built into the brain. They are like wide highways leading from a certain input (sudden loud noise) to a certain output (fear). There are also beliefs that we acquire as we grow up. We could compare them to smaller paved roads. Finally, there are habits that we acquired recently. We could compare these to paths trodden in grass.

A driver trying to get from Warsaw to Poznań in a shortest possible time will choose a new route only when he is convinced that the road he currently knows is jammed, or when he is certain that a new one would be much faster than the old one. Likewise, the mind will react in a habitual way (in other words, will choose a previously tested reaction) until it experiences a positive effect resulting from a new type of reaction, or if it directly experiences a negative effect of choosing the habitual response.

So, in order to change a habitual reaction (a belief), the mind needs first to intellectually recognize that the present reaction is not beneficial for it.  Secondly, it must experience, directly, that this type of reaction is causing it harm. Therefore, both: appropriate information and awareness of its functioning are essential. If either of these two elements is missing, the mind will not have sufficient information to change the habit.

So far, in our reflections on the emergence of mental tension, we’ve noticed that the mind is firmly convinced that generating a “pushing away” energy against unpleasant mental states will bring about a positive result. In other words, the “pushing away” reaction has trodden and hardened a wide path in the mind. Obviously, this action does not translate into a positive mind state, but the habit has gotten so strong that, from the mind’s perspective, this type of reaction seems to be the only sensible one. This means that the habit must have developed under conditions that were different from the current ones, and its activation must have produced positive outcomes in the past. Let us consider how this could have happened.

How did your mind come to a belief that “pushing away” mental impressions is beneficial?

To understand why “pushing away” mental impressions seems beneficial, let’s try to understand how an emotional response occurs in the body. The body is constantly exposed to countless sensations. The mind, on a conscious and unconscious level, makes a constant evaluation of the potential impact of these sensations on the state of the body. On the basis of this assessment, it decides how the body should react to the experience.

For example: the mind recognizes a loud sound, judges that the source of the sound may possibly be a threat, this evaluation causes an immediate emotional response in the body in order to prepare the body to avoid the danger. Emotion automatically translates into body movement (fleeing or fighting the sound source). As a result of this action, the sound source is removed or neutralized. The emotion slowly fades away (the adrenal glands stop secreting norepinephrine, the heart rate slows down, the blood pressure drops) and the body returns to its neutral state.

In early childhood, the main reactions of the mind were associated with the occurrence of emotions in the body that immediately modified its actions.

If a child experiences hunger, he or she does not like it, and an emotion of stress arises in the body. This emotion translates directly into a change in the state of the body, namely crying. The mother, seeing this, feeds the baby. The feeling of hunger disappears, the mind is satisfied, the emotion dies out. Mind relaxes and the child falls asleep. This situation repeats itself many times and… perpetuates the habit.

If we look at the animal world and our life up to the age of say somewhere around 6, it seems that the emergence of emotions related to the preparation of the body to avoid an unpleasant state was automatically translated into a specific physical action. This was resulting in a change of the conditions and consequent subsidence of the emotions. Hence the already deep habit was strengthening even more.

If a mind feels uncomfortable – it changes the position of the body; if it is hungry – by changing the expression on its face, it sends signals to its mother to feed him; if it feels the pain associated with a burn – moves the body away from a harmful object and sends alarming signals to its parent. If a child’s mind feels that another mind (of another preschooler) is threatening its well-being, it immediately confronts or runs away from the colleague. All of these responses are very similar to the responses of animal’s mind. And they all bring an immediate discharge of the emotional energy.

When an animal hears a sudden loud noise, an emotion of stress immediately arises in its body, preparing it to defend itself. At the same time, the animal’s mind assesses the situation and decides whether it has to act or not. If not, the emotion dies out and the body returns to its neutral state.

However, as we mature, our mind slowly learns not to translate much of this emotional energy into a physical activity. If an adult slightly burns himself, usually he doesn’t scream out loud for help. If she hits her head on a cupboard, she usually (but not always) doesn’t attack the cupboard with fury. If he feels threatened by a competitor at work, he does not physically attack him.

This is the main trait and the drama of a well-behaving adult. He/she does not translate emotions into acting the way a child or animal would do it. This does not mean that the emotions do not arise in the body. However, many of them are left not being translated into a physical action. The body gets prepared to act in order to defend itself or conquer, but the action never comes, the emotion gets never released. And this can be the cause of great deal of suffering (stress) in the adult’s mind.

Oftentimes, the suffering associated with emotional tension is so intense that the mind slowly becomes less sensitive to these states, ceasing to feel them over time. In other words, the mind begins to slowly withdraw consciousness from those parts of the body that are involved in the emotional response.Unfortunately, it has to pay a very high price for it. Just like the emotions of stress, fear or anxiety are specific states of the body, the emotions of joy, happiness or love are other states of the same body. Withdrawing awareness from these body parts (stomach, heart etc) closes the possibility of experiencing positive feelings that are rooted in the states of the same body parts.

We are getting closer and closer to understanding why the mind reacts with mental tension to unpleasant sensations. The mind has a deep-seated habit of causing an emotional response to remove the unpleasant experience by the body. If, however, this is physically impossible (no sound or mental state can be caught), the emotion remains unloaded in the body and is felt by the mind as a tension.

But why does the mind not change its habit when it results in stress?

The mind doesn’t recognize the connection between a habitual reaction and a resulting mental state. It is only aware of an experience it is responding to, and the resulting mental state. The mechanics of the reaction itself stay beyond the scope of its consciousness. Consequently, the mind does not take into account a very important element that is determining the state of the body.

The result of such a habit is a vicious circle into which the mind falls. The mind experiences a negative state, dislikes it, and begins preparation of the body to physically remove the unpleasant mental state. However, for obvious reasons, this is doomed to failure. The newly generated emotion adds to the tension already present, and increases the level of stress experienced by the mind. This triggers another reaction and even more determination to physically remove the painful mental state. And this increases the mental tension even more. The cycle repeats itself over and over again. How do you break this painful habit?

open awareness

what is your flavour?

Can you tell what is your flavour?
How do “you” taste?
The trees taste like my mother.
My new trousers taste a little bit like a friend that wears similar ones.
But how do you taste from inside?
How do “you” taste for your own consciousness?

But what is this flavour?
How does it taste?
The taste of life is coca-cola,
So this one is easy…
But the taste of me?

Sometimes the entire world tastes like me,
Only humans inside taste different.
Their bodies taste like me,
But their faces different.
Often nature tastes like my mother and sisters,
After that like me.
But then all world tastes more like a woman
Than a man.

Familiar tastes like this , not familiar like that.
Knowing tastes like this,
Not knowing like that.
Being tastes like this, not being like that.
Blue tastes like this,
Red tastes like that.
Something tastes like this,
Nothing tastes like that.
Real tastes like this,
Not real tastes like that.
Being right tastes like this,
Not being right tastes like that.
Being interested tastes like this, not being interested tastes like that

Big boiling soup of continuously shifting flavours


Is your black tasting like mine black
Is your not seeing tasting like mine not seeing
Is your pain tasting like my pain
Is your “I” tasting like mine “I”???

Do you taste like me?